"The guy who takes a chance, who walks the line between the known and unknown, who is unafraid of failure, will succeed." -- Gordon Parks

diet

i really really hate dieting. i really hate it.
the word diet alone makes me sooooo hungry, but i am on one. starting today i am going to lose at least twenty pounds. that means nooooooo fast food which is going to be hard because i love fast food! lol. its just so easy.

also im gonna start video blogging soon. lol. its going to be amazing. aha.

im supposed to be getting ready for work so im out.

randomness

i havent blogged in awhile but i just havent felt inspired lately lol.

i have been working on my life lately. i will be receiving a diploma in may. the whole college thing isnt going as planned. i might wait awhile on that one...im not sure. im working on my relationship with god. i gave my first testimony at one of the best church services ive ever had the privelege to attend.

my bday is in a month and a half and im sooo excited.

blabbering.

I just got home from spending sometime with my bffs, I realized that over the past year a lot of my "friends" have gone missing. I thank god for helping me find my true friends and lose the fake even though it hurts at times to think back.

also im going to begin planing a youth rally or revial. im super excited. I just really wanna see the youth group grow and prosper. as the president I've been slacking but now im stepping up and hopefully with prayer and the lords help well see some success.

not for sale

im just sooo blessed. god has done amazing things for me through all these years, big and small.


hes kept me out of trouble with the police, he saved me from an overdose, hes given me not one but two great families, i have a job that i always take for granted, he blessed me with true friends. and for awhile i thought all this was luck now i know it was love.


the best thing of all is the fact that his love knows no bounds. even when i was partying and doing drugs he loved me. and i could have been locked up for the stupid thing i was doing at the time and i could have died, but god has a plan for me...he always provides for me, even though sometimes i fail to thank him at times i dont even notice.


jesus loved me when i felt like no one else did. he was my light at the end of the dark tunnel. i wont sell out.i will live my life for jesus, because he died for me. so my heart belongs to jesus because he saved me.

not for sale

i was hunting for the lyrics to a song and i stumbled across these lyrics and though id share.

Not 4 Sale

Carman

The devil came to my house, knocked on my door

I said, oh my, I know that I have heard this voice before

He said, "You're quite a talent, the makings of a star

And with a little help from me you really can go far.

I'll tell you what I told the rest, the rules remain the same.

Don't glorify, support or even mention Jesus' name.

Now you can do something that's positive, but just don't misbehave.

Like use your noteoriety and get somebody saved.

And don't you see so vocal about the Truth you know.

The Bible's bad for business, leave your faith at home.

I'll give you wealth and fame, far as the eye can see.

Live the way you want, but your career belongs to me."

The he smiled a crooked smile and winked and evil eye

And said, "Well, whatcha think, my man?" and this was my reply



I have been bought with a pricewhen Jesus hung on a tree

My life is not my own, I'll never follow your lead

You build up all the pleasure of sin in people's eyes

But never tell the consequences of the compromise

You used to have my number, but this time you will fail

So get thee behind me, Satan, I'm not for sale

luke warm

man i hate valentines day...
it wasnt sooooo bad i worked half the day and hung out with my close friends the rest.

but anyways...im having a bad day. well im having a bad few days. im feeling rather luke warm these days spiritually. i dont exactly know why. im not doing bad things i just feel this strange distance between me and god latley. i feel like its just so hard to be what people expect me to be as a christian. it drives me nuts. its like people judge my every move. i really cant stand it. i feel that my relationship with god is my business. just because im a christian that doesnt make me a nun.

yes i got called a nun today. because i dont party and dont do thing the majority of my peers do and i proclaim my stand for jesus christ im like some kind of freakin plege. oh adriana the nun. i feel like im standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming at the top of my lings and no one hears me...or cares one or the other.

im just feeling rather discouraged with life. im depressed. im not happy. i dont know why. im not a nun. im not perfect. i dont like people. i can feel god. i dont like my peers especially. my youth group sucks. my future is dim. i cant stand my mother. i cant feel god. im bitter. no one freakin cares. i cant feel god.

i cant feel god.