my testimony

about a year ago i was the lowest point in my young life, i was doing so many drugs and i drank aye-lot! now looking back on some of my "close calls" i see the blessings that i was to messed up to see back then. looking back i see the amazing way that god works and we may not even know it at the time. i remember a situation in which me and a friend snuck a large amount of alcohol into my good friend amandas car without her knowing. amanda has never done anything illegal in her life and my little stunt could and would have landed us all in jail (being minors at the time) for a very long time. i remember the panic i felt as the cop started fallowing us...and i remember the feeling of defeat as the lights came on and i remember the feeling of relief when the cop turned to assist the fender bender that had just occurred ten feet away... then there was the time i almost died...the time i should have died...most people would have died after taking all those pills then mixing it with all that alcohol...but no not me. that was a bad time...my life seemed to spiral down from there. my home life became unbarable. i remember fighting all the time with my parents, i remember wishing my overdose had killed me.

it was just after church camp when i realized what my life was missing. Jesus Christ. i decided to rededicate my life to him. i shocked alot of people...people who knew the old me...people who are still waiting for me to fail. i lost alot of friends. but i gained so much more. maybe this has been on my mind so much because im at the one year anniversary and when i look back at who i was then and who i am now i pray that i never return to that. i now see that all those "close calls" were god giving me yet another chance because he has a plan for me. and now that im no longer fighting it i am a willing vessel.